I’m Willing, Lord

The King James Version of scripture says “…whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it” (John 17:33). The Phillips translation reads “the man who is prepared to lose his life will preserve it.”

That change led to the following conversation.

Me…Father, tonight I’m sad and discouraged.

God…Why, my son?

Me…I don’t like getting old.

God…Why, my son?

Me…I’m stiff. I hurt. I’m tired. My eyesight is failing. I can’t hear anything. My life is getting closer and closer to being over.

God…Is that all that’s bothering you?

Me…No. I’m feel I’m becoming useless to you. I’ve never done anything great and glorious for you to show you how much I love you.

God…Have I ever asked you to do anything great and glorious for me?

Me…No. I don’t think so.

God…If I had asked you, would you have done it?


God…If I do ask you, will you do it?

Me…Yes. Absolutely

God…That’s enough. Remember, I “look on the heart.” (I Samuel 16:7) Your willingness, like that of Abraham’s (Genesis 22:10), is all I have required from you. I may still ask for the great and glorious, but in the meantime keep being faithful in the small, everyday ways I direct you. And don’t forget I love you very much.